The Good The Bad and The Ugly...

The Good News
God continues to lead this ministry and project in ways that I could not have ever imagined. I did some research on SESOK, and found that they have basically the same mission as I do! SESOK is a part of a larger group called The Global Outreach, which is a non profit that believes in sending 100% of funds raised to the place it was raised for. They have started a project recently for the orphans of Mumias, too! I am making contact with them to find out how this program works and how much money it has generated so far. I am so excited to have a potential ally to help meet the needs of the orphans who I feel like are a part of my family.

The Bad News
Kenya is experiencing Famine due to flooding. Pastor Lucas told me today that the crops that were planted have been washed away and that food is running out. Homes are also being flooded. Pastor Lucas has been providing food aid to surrounding communities, but the food ran out last week.

The Ugly News
If they do not receive help soon, many will die. People have already gone a week without food.

So now I struggle with this heaviness on my heart. How can I help them now? How can I send money that way? How can I raise funds for the urgent need as well as funds for me to actually go on the mission trip and to start the Art for Africa program? The needs are so great and I feel like my hands are tied and that I am just treading water waiting alongside them for rescue. I am in conflict internally..I am the rescuer..but I don't know how to swim and I have no life preserver to throw to them.

Paul and I had received some money from my great aunt this week, that we planned to use to enrich our marriage by using it for dates. This is an area that we really truly need in order to improve and maintain our relationship. I feel so guilty thinking that I really want to keep this gift so that we can go on dates..and at the same time I get scared thinking that if I don't use this blessing for dates with my husband that I am not placing value on my marriage (which has been an ongoing theme by me that I want to change). Then on the other hand I think about how this money (though it is not a huge amount) could be a blessing to the people of Kenya.

As I struggle with this in my mind, heart and soul I come to wonder how much this amount could do? Could it save a life? Could me hoarding it allow another to die of starvation? How can I live with myself knowing that?

OK, this blog post is definately not inspiring today!!! I am so sorry for that. I just need to work this out and writing it helps to make it real. I will let you know what I decide to do.
Jenn